The Journey of a Survivor

Derealization/depersonalization. Me? I don’t know much about it—I never believed it, so I never bothered to explore it. In my early 20s I had a period where I almost could not interact with people—I felt disconnected with them—like they were in different world. Matter of fact I felt like the world in general was working at a pace different than mine—like it was going on without me. I was just watching it happen—I was irrelevant—it was like the world was a movie and I was just watching it. Sometimes it seemed like I dissociated or something. It was most apparent when I drove—I would feel so separated to what was going on that I would withdrawal into my own world. I had several car accidents. I withdrew socially and became isolated. I felt so insignificant. If I was in a social situation I felt like everybody was interacting with each other but I was on the outside looking in. I really felt like I was losing my mind—going insane.