Physical abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, alcoholism, drug use…what caused these intrusive thoughts? They really started hitting me when I was about 11 years old. Although, they were occasionally around when I was a little younger. That was when I started drinking and huffing gas. That was also my first suicide attempt. I have no […]
As a child I spent much of my time alone. I read or did other things to entertain myself. Feeling like I never fit in with my family or kids from school made me feel distant and I never really bonded with many people—friends or family. The abuse I endured, especially the sexual abuse, made […]
Crack is what just about ended it all—I almost let it steal my life. There is no greater pleasure than that first hit—calming, numbing—it hits your head like a tidal wave and the rest of the world just disappears. Instant euphoria—ultimate pleasure. For that brief moment everything is perfect. Too bad the perfection is so […]