Comments on: Physical abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, alcoholism, drug use… http://alive.psychcentral.net/2007/07/16/physical-abuse-sexual-abuse-neglect-alcoholism-drug-use%e2%80%a6/ My life has been turbulent…dramatic to say the least. Read a little, but use caution it contains many triggers. Fri, 21 Nov 2008 15:35:04 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=wordpress-mu-1.2.5 By: alive http://alive.psychcentral.net/2007/07/16/physical-abuse-sexual-abuse-neglect-alcoholism-drug-use%e2%80%a6/#comment-635 alive Wed, 18 Jul 2007 03:15:48 +0000 http://alive.psychcentral.net/2007/07/16/physical-abuse-sexual-abuse-neglect-alcoholism-drug-use%e2%80%a6/#comment-635 Hi John, thanks for taking the time to comment. It sounds like we do have a lot in common. Please know that I am in therapy and such—being well taken care of. The isolation is the hardest part of my battle. I appreciate knowing that I am not alone in my struggles…not that I wish anybody to suffer from this. I wish you nothing but the best. Sincerely, Alive. Hi John, thanks for taking the time to comment. It sounds like we do have a lot in common. Please know that I am in therapy and such—being well taken care of. The isolation is the hardest part of my battle. I appreciate knowing that I am not alone in my struggles…not that I wish anybody to suffer from this. I wish you nothing but the best.

Sincerely, Alive.

]]> By: John (PoetMan) http://alive.psychcentral.net/2007/07/16/physical-abuse-sexual-abuse-neglect-alcoholism-drug-use%e2%80%a6/#comment-634 John (PoetMan) Tue, 17 Jul 2007 22:07:06 +0000 http://alive.psychcentral.net/2007/07/16/physical-abuse-sexual-abuse-neglect-alcoholism-drug-use%e2%80%a6/#comment-634 I can sympathize with what you are saying as I have these same thoughts that no one can understand what it is that I am really feeling. It doesn’t seem to matter how I state it, I can’t seem to explain to anyone the sensations and haunting feelings that I have. I do also get suicidal at times thinking that this is the only way to be rid of these dreadful feelings. Please don’t despair; you are not alone out there for there are others like yourself. From what I have read, it sounds just like a lot of the emotions and feelings that I have. Some days are definitely harder to bear than others and you wonder how do I go on, why do I have to feel like this for another day and that goes on in a continuous pattern from one day to the next with no relief. I do feel completely isolated too; no matter what I do, it doesn’t make much of a difference or make my feelings completely go away. It plagues me all of my waking existence and I find that I am in a constant battle to not loose my sanity altogether. I think I lost enough already. I don’t know if I can truly understand what you feel, but when I read what you wrote it just sounds so familiar to the way I feel. I was physically abused and raped at 12 and another attempt at 15 and was an alcoholic, drug addict (cocaine, acid, speed, pot, etc,). I still use pot occasionally as I do find it calms me in a certain way no other drug does, (not that I recommend this) but nothing else since I was in my early twenties. I have a diagnosis of BPD, PTSD, anxiety/panic disorder, I suffer delusions at least I think that’s what it is however it just seems so real what is happening to me and I feel like there is nothing I can do to stop it. I wonder if I have some underlying schizophrenic tendencies and my doctor is going to do some further investigation. I am also very introverted and have had very few friends my entire life just as now. Whatever is wrong I have to somehow learn to live with all of these feelings. You are a Survivor just as I feel I am a Survivor. I think that all that keeps me going is knowing that I will find some relief somewhere; somehow, sometime, but I just haven’t found all the answers yet. We have to keep fighting. Please seek help if you are not already. I know it is not all the answers but it is part of a solution. I do find some calming effects I learned from the doctors like mediation, hypnosis, and prayers. It doesn’t take it away but kind of allows me to somewhat focus away from the most intense of the feelings. I keep praying for answers and strength to get through whatever it is I must face and I will also add you in my prayers. I hope this may help you in some small way. A Friend, John (PoetMan) ((((HUGS)))) I can sympathize with what you are saying as I have these same thoughts that no one can understand what it is that I am really feeling. It doesn’t seem to matter how I state it, I can’t seem to explain to anyone the sensations and haunting feelings that I have. I do also get suicidal at times thinking that this is the only way to be rid of these dreadful feelings. Please don’t despair; you are not alone out there for there are others like yourself. From what I have read, it sounds just like a lot of the emotions and feelings that I have. Some days are definitely harder to bear than others and you wonder how do I go on, why do I have to feel like this for another day and that goes on in a continuous pattern from one day to the next with no relief. I do feel completely isolated too; no matter what I do, it doesn’t make much of a difference or make my feelings completely go away. It plagues me all of my waking existence and I find that I am in a constant battle to not loose my sanity altogether. I think I lost enough already. I don’t know if I can truly understand what you feel, but when I read what you wrote it just sounds so familiar to the way I feel. I was physically abused and raped at 12 and another attempt at 15 and was an alcoholic, drug addict (cocaine, acid, speed, pot, etc,). I still use pot occasionally as I do find it calms me in a certain way no other drug does, (not that I recommend this) but nothing else since I was in my early twenties. I have a diagnosis of BPD, PTSD, anxiety/panic disorder, I suffer delusions at least I think that’s what it is however it just seems so real what is happening to me and I feel like there is nothing I can do to stop it. I wonder if I have some underlying schizophrenic tendencies and my doctor is going to do some further investigation. I am also very introverted and have had very few friends my entire life just as now. Whatever is wrong I have to somehow learn to live with all of these feelings. You are a Survivor just as I feel I am a Survivor. I think that all that keeps me going is knowing that I will find some relief somewhere; somehow, sometime, but I just haven’t found all the answers yet. We have to keep fighting. Please seek help if you are not already. I know it is not all the answers but it is part of a solution. I do find some calming effects I learned from the doctors like mediation, hypnosis, and prayers. It doesn’t take it away but kind of allows me to somewhat focus away from the most intense of the feelings. I keep praying for answers and strength to get through whatever it is I must face and I will also add you in my prayers. I hope this may help you in some small way.

A Friend,

John (PoetMan) ((((HUGS))))

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